When did holding hands with a girl stop giving me butterflies? When did a kiss become just a kiss? This isn't because of anything that happened, more it has to do with an episode of That 70's Show when Fez holds the hand of a pretty girl and that's all there is. I remember that walk with Ashley all those years ago. All the way from Lebanon to Waterloo and I held her hand it that was simply the most romantic and perfect night of my life. I was 18! I kept my innocence longer than most. Then, last year, my friends told me my innocence is part of my appeal. So what do I do? I lost it as quickly as I could. I miss the old me.

God, please, please, please for the sake of my mother on mother's day, grant me the strength to survive my family.