I'm really missing my old lifestyle today.  I'm plagued with all the happy memories of time gone by.  I know I can't go back, but some days I want to so bad.  I'll live with Manny if only for one more time.  And yet, I can't think like that.  I have to keep going forward and stop living in the past.  I burned the bridges for a reason and I have to live with my decisions.  Oh well, I can always get drunk and drunk I will get tonight.  Me, myself and a bottle of Black Velvet will take over this blog tonight.  And it will probably end up with me hating life, etc. Oh well, at least I'll get to feel good for a little bit.