Is the fear of rejection or failure the reason I'm still single?

Was the fear of rejection or failure the real reason I didn't go to college? Not laziness or lack of encouragement?

Somehow having a family day is kinda depressing :-(

I should be able to satisft those needs myself, but I can't. I still desperatly crave recognition.

I still depend on others to satisfy my insecurites. I need praise and recognition from others because it's never enough to do something just for me.

Life is nothing more than satisfying needs and desires and avoiding fears and insecurities. I had potential, but I never grew up and now I don't know how to.

Faith conflicts with my view on reality. I feel that if I have it will be giving into my fear of death.

Just saw a rainbow over a church with a cross at the apex. Was it a sign? I don't think so, but it was pretty.

I'm not broke w/ no imediate prospect of being broke. I've made a decision not to do "that what must not be named". What's next, weight gain?

What's up with this? I'm have such low confidence today and I'm irratable. Why can't I find my zen and keep it?