The lonely rantings of a former looser trying to make it through life the best he can. Am I crazy? Maybe a little? Am I bad? I really don't think so. Maybe I'm just me and really that's all that people should expect.
September 02, 2009
I worry way too much to enjoy life. I say life is too short, then why am I wasting so much of it worrying about how short and unfair iti is?
You have the same problem as i do, you are constantly trying to make sense of things that cannot be understood. For example you see a hot chick and a fat dude walking down the street holding hands and I'm guessing, you begin to feel very bitter inside. You try and make sense of it but you cant, and it bothers you. You compare yourself to the man and you conclude that your better than he is (or he at least doesnt deserve her), that's when the the self bullying starts, well it does for me at least. You begin to ask yourself why your not holding her hand, and why, that when your in your lonely comfort of smoking weed you don't even want one of those girls. you get frustrated by the ordeal and conclude that your different and thats FINAL! the solution.. QUIT WEED! it fixed me.
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You have the same problem as i do, you are constantly trying to make sense of things that cannot be understood. For example you see a hot chick and a fat dude walking down the street holding hands and I'm guessing, you begin to feel very bitter inside. You try and make sense of it but you cant, and it bothers you. You compare yourself to the man and you conclude that your better than he is (or he at least doesnt deserve her), that's when the the self bullying starts, well it does for me at least. You begin to ask yourself why your not holding her hand, and why, that when your in your lonely comfort of smoking weed you don't even want one of those girls. you get frustrated by the ordeal and conclude that your different and thats FINAL! the solution.. QUIT WEED! it fixed me.
im probably way off the mark.. but fuck it :)
peace
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