October 28, 2009
The world needs to leave me alone. Don't confront me, I'm sick of lying. I've found something/someone new. It's my new obsession. There's truth in what I've found. There's the answer in there somewhere, when I find it, I'll come out. For now, leave me alone. Please, just leave me alone and leave me to me. Whatever I am.
October 19, 2009
October 18, 2009
October 17, 2009
October 12, 2009
So I've spent the majority of the day asking myself this question: Would I rather have drugs without friends or friends without drugs. I've come to the conclusion that I'd rather have drugs without friends. At the moment I have neither. But drugs would make my current situation better and friends wouldn't necessarily.
I'm boooored. I'm lonely. I want weed. I want my identity back. I miss my friends. I'm gonna go crazy and it's sad how quickly all my friends abandon me. I try to throw myself into work, but it isn't working. I work 6 days a week for money, but what's the point of money if there's nothing to do with it? And the worst part about all of this is that I brought it all on myself. It's nobody's problem except my own. I would rather be used than rejected.
October 11, 2009
So I'm 3 or 4 days without weed at the moment. Pretty much longer than I've gone in more than three years and it sucks! I don't want a bowl but I state of semi-haze that I've lived in. I miss my friends. I feel like I've reverted to God know what. I don't know, but it sucks so bad. I wake up in the middle of the night crying because I'm so lonely. When I wake up I have a hard time deciding what I dreamt and what actually happened. I don't know what I want, but I don't want to be here!
October 09, 2009
October 05, 2009
October 01, 2009
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