So I'm 3 or 4 days without weed at the moment. Pretty much longer than I've gone in more than three years and it sucks! I don't want a bowl but I state of semi-haze that I've lived in. I miss my friends. I feel like I've reverted to God know what. I don't know, but it sucks so bad. I wake up in the middle of the night crying because I'm so lonely. When I wake up I have a hard time deciding what I dreamt and what actually happened. I don't know what I want, but I don't want to be here!