I am stuck in a cold war. There is no overt fighting, but it seems like we're always trying to get a leg up on the other. It could erupt into a huge fight at any moment. All it will take is a few insensitive words and the other will react. I know that if they offend me one too many times, then I could drop a few words and this entire household will be fighting. All I'd have to say is something insensitive about any of the many family "secrets". I could point out the time he hit on my cousin (and his step-niece) when she was most vulnerable. I could bring up the time he went to jail for hitting my mother. I could remind him how his family thinks he drove his own mother to overdose on morphine. Any of those would do the trick. I know he resents my presence here, and I still resent his. I still hate him.
I never realized how much hate is pent up in my heart. I hate Him, I hate Thor, and I hate myself most of all.
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