- I love the first shot.
- Tastes like shit, but I love the warm feeling :)
- My heart wants what my stomach may not be able to take.
- I wish I could skip the getting drunk part and go straight to being drunk.
- I want drugs.
- Still not drunk, I wonder which shot I'll be able to say "I'm drunk."
- Yuck!
- Time for a cigarette.
- I want a burger, a big burger, a one pounder with all the fixings.
- I'm gonna have a couple cookies, then it's down for a shot every 5 minutes.
- So I took a break there for the drunchies, a 1 pound burger with cheese and lettus and mayo and mustard and ketchup. After the break I feel like shit. Like why am I even still around? Maybe the answer is at the bottom of this bottle.
- I feel better after another shot, not all better, but a little bit.
- God I hope the answer is at the bottom of this bottle. I feel like such a piece of shit.
- Haven't been keeping up on this, but I just puked :(
- Blah, I feel like shit, but the bottom of the bottle won't be reached by itself.
- God, I just want to give up. I'm so tired. All I want to do is go to sleep.
The lonely rantings of a former looser trying to make it through life the best he can. Am I crazy? Maybe a little? Am I bad? I really don't think so. Maybe I'm just me and really that's all that people should expect.
January 15, 2013
So much for resolution #2
We're gonna play a little game. I'm sitting her drinking a bottle of bottom shelf rum and I plan to drink the whole thing. After each shot I'm going to write one sentence. At the bottom of the bottle, I'll write a paragraph based on what I've written.
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Oh dear.
Feeling your pain and sending you all my love! Sorry I don't comment much anymore - but I am still reading!
I know this is patronising and obvious and I'm sure you've tried it already, but just in case: AA has really helped my Dad and is now really helping me. I've been sober 20 days. I see you've been clean for ages now too - that's amazing, I'm so impressed with you.
You're awesome and wonderful and I'm thinking of you (all the way from New Zealand, but I don't think the distance counts where thoughts are concerned)
xoxo
Jamie
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