The same thing every day, week after week until someday I just won't wake up. I know it's been a long time since I've posted and I only have two minutes at best, but right now life seems so futilely finite it's ridiculous. It seems that all I want to do is sit and home and watch TV but I feel guilty because it's the same thing I always do. Plus as of right now I have maybe two more life times left to live if I'm lucky and less than one if I continue as I am, with overeating, too much smoking and other things. God it all seems to hopeless.