Don't look at me world. Why don't I disgust you as much as I disgust myself? Why do you look at me with sympathy and compassion when you should be looking at me with contempt or at best indifference? Why can't you see me as I do? I'm disgusting, I'm repulsive, I'm incapable of love. When I look in the mirror I see wasted potential and shattered dreams. I see desire, I want so much more out of life, I just know I don't deserve it.