Anyone out there?

Does anybody actually read this anymore? I know I said this blog was dead a couple of months ago, but I'm still here.  I think I'm going to do a little snap shot of my life on March 22, 2012.  As of right now, I'm living off of the last of my unemployment, staying in Lebanon with my parents, allegedly to help them out, but sometime it seems that they're helping me more than I've ever helped them.  I was fired form Assurant about a year and a half ago and I'm still reeling from it.  It was the loss of my identity and so far the only things I've found to replace it are horrible, crippling addictions: food, gambling, etc. I still hope that Happily Ever After is out there, but lately I'm convinced that I will probably die alone and probably young.  It snowed, a lot the night before last, and on the 2nd day of Spring, can you believe it?  So that's about it.  I'm still hoping that the next step in life will reveal itself at the last moment, but I should really make some decisive move either way.  So that's where I am.  Lonely, mostly broke, over 350 lbs now, not a very good outlook, but who know, right?