I understand that when I've spent my entire life attempting to buy friends that it's my fault when I find friends that use me, but family?  Come on.  I spend so much money on these people, I don't buy anything for myself without sharing, and nothing.  No small acts of kindness from anyone, and they still spend all their money on their fucking girls.  I'm so sick of doing them favors and expecting random acts of kindness in return.  At least when people were using me in Albany, they would occasionally burst out with something small but thoughtful that would make me smile inside and out, these people just make me feel like shit.  This is my family, and they don't even try to be nice to me.  Sad, frustrating, disheartening.