I always do this, I get my hopes up for something to change in life and it doesn't. So I was up late last night, and searching myspace for old high school friends, when I realized a couple of things. One, I didn't have many friends. And when I say many, I mean any. I didn't have any friends aside from the people that were trying to use me and loose me. Two, every single person that has a myspace account is doing better than me. In love, going to college, having kids, everyone of them is happy. When I look at myself, I see a lot of things, but I don't see happy. I see conflicted, lonely, empty, scared, and right now just depressed.

Now my depression comes partially from last nights tears in front of my computer, but there's