So we just got back from Reno last night, and it was fun. I'll have a better review of every casino, bar etc I went into, but right now I need to talk about my desire to quit smoking. I told myself a month ago that I was going to quit smoking after Reno. But now I'm on my first day and I'm staring at my cigarettes and wondering if this was a good idea or not, I'm ashamed that cigarettes have that much control over me. For the first time in my life I'm actually experiencing the addiction. Even typing in this blog I want to put a cigarette between my fingers, it's how I always type. Now I'm not even sure if I really want to quit, but I know that as soon as I light it I've failed. And I hate to fail, even though I do it all the time. I really want one, just look at those, do I quit or not? It's going to be bad, but they say don't even try if you're not completely sure about it. Right now I'm not sure about it, but I know I'll hate myself even worse if I light up.