So a weekend with nothing to do and I'm near panic, what's wrong with me? Why am I so afraid to spend time with myself? Yeah I go home every night and I stare at my tv and maybe my computer, for a few hours and then I go to bed and wake up alone, but somehow the thought of spending whole days alone without talking to anybody kinda scares me. I'm sure this isn't normal, but it's still scary. If I look deeper into the fear, I guess my fear of death prevents me from wasting time alone. I realize that I have to go home to an empty apartment every night alone, but my waking hours should not be spent alone! I'm so afraid to spend my life alone.