So I mentioned a couple of months ago a girl named Melody that brought up bad feelings in me. Here is a chat that I had with a friend where I released it all. For those of you who care and those of you who don't look at my soul and judge me worthy!

some_18_yo_guy: there was this girl in highschool
some_18_yo_guy: Melody
some_18_yo_guy: she used me and abused me
some_18_yo_guy: I took the fall for her too many times to remember
some_18_yo_guy: I did her homework
some_18_yo_guy: I did her work
some_18_yo_guy: she got my in trouble for harassment
some_18_yo_guy: she got me arrested
Opi-yum: ouch
some_18_yo_guy: she scammed me out of what little money I ever made
some_18_yo_guy: and after she got me arrested
some_18_yo_guy: I still went back to her
some_18_yo_guy: she could play me like guitar
some_18_yo_guy: and I would go back to her again
some_18_yo_guy: she knew that I wanted her
some_18_yo_guy: and she wasn't that great
some_18_yo_guy: in high school I could have had better
some_18_yo_guy: but my low self esteem prevented me from seeing that
Opi-yum: low self esteem is the pits. =/
some_18_yo_guy: the thought of her still brings back hate and shame more that I can ever describe
some_18_yo_guy: and still despite all that
some_18_yo_guy: if she cam to me right now and said
some_18_yo_guy: "after all I've been through, you're the only one's that's ever treated me right
some_18_yo_guy: I would go back to her without thinking
some_18_yo_guy: quit my job
some_18_yo_guy: spend all my savingss
some_18_yo_guy: I would still sacrafice it all for her
some_18_yo_guy: and I have no idea why
some_18_yo_guy: (phew I've been holding that in for WAY too long)