To answer Gregg's questions: I did have some trouble in school up until 10th grade or so. I could never seem to turn in assignments on time, so my first two years of high school I had something like a 1.2 GPA. Then in 10th grade I found "herbal" remedies for depression, etc. I always thought that to be one of the great ironies of my life. That the further I got into herbs, the better my grades got.

To answer his other question: I have talked to various counselors etc. They never told me anything worth any value. Besides, real therapy is expensive. While I was at Job Corps, I was on Paxil, and that helped to a certain extent, I was more social, but no less socially inept. I just wasn't as afraid of making mistakes, and when I did it wasn't as big a deal. It was as if Paxil took away my obsessive way that I tend to worry about problems, and replaced it with gross indifference. That's why I gained 60 lbs. At Job Corps, it's all so clear now! Paxil was my savior and my destructor.

Alas, work beckons, so I must depart. Thanks Gregg for your interest.